Amazing Seiji

**So, I recently started working as an ESL Tutor, and this guy in the picture was one of my students, so before our class, I was able to get a preview about him since every prev teacher can leave their comment/s and it's available for other teachers to see, and based on their every comment I was kind of creep out reading through the evaluation list from other tutors about the student because they’ve all been saying somewhat the same thing about him. Interestingly they're saying that the student seems to be doing the same thing over and over again every day and apparently it has been going on for the past two years now. First, he’d show you some pictures of flowers that he said he took, then next some pictures of his 2-year old granddaughter, and then the next minute he’s meditating, and out of nowhere he would suddenly read chapter 29 from the book Anne of Green Gables, and then he’s meditating again, and/or he’s gonna play his harmonica with his favorite piece Amazing Grace. It’s always like that. 

So I was kind of nervous because I really don’t know what to feel, I don’t really like to rely on previous comments and also I don’t want to judge him because I haven’t met him yet. at the same time, I don’t want to judge the teachers as they all have their rights with their opinions and thoughts, 

And when I met him, that's when I was able to see it myself, they were right. I am not sure then what to feel, I was conflicted. I was excited and nervous at first, and then when I finally met him I was both sad and happy at the same time. I am having a hard time finding words how am I going to express what I feel about what I have just encountered, I kinda thought that being a psychologist or psychiatrist would somehow fit me, but after that encounter, I started to question myself if what I thought is right, I started to think how capable do I think I am if I am again faced with a similar situation or even worse. Despite seeing how excited he was, doing what he was doing, I just can't simply feel the same, I was deeply distraught. While it seems nice seeing him in his own world and completely oblivious about the reality of the world, (I kinda feel a bit envious of him) I still can't help but feel sad.

 One thing is for sure though, that experience made me ponder about a lot of things in my life.