"why do I have to be so sad"

      

I feel like I'm upside down. Smiling, pretending I am happy to avoid questions. I just feel bad that I am already sad and then there are these people who randomly doing some annoying stuff like they need some attention when I’m not even in the mood to talk to anybody. I don’t mean like I want them to understand me, I just want to have quiet time for myself.

But have you ever had that feeling where in you constantly detaching yourself from everybody and you are not telling anyone that you are having a bad day(to avoid questions), yet a part of you still hopes that somehow there would be just even ONE person who would ask you “how are you? How are you feeling, emotionally?” and that when someone asked you that it would make you feel okay all of a sudden, with just one person and that would be enough.